At first I was thinking “I know she isn’t asking me if I knowtoday is Super Bowl Sunday… I mean the game is on right now?”
I replied saying I was not aware of what the day was and she happily informed me that it was the day I made the decision to attend TCU. I remember that day very well. It was snowing and I had no real jacket. It was a special day, Experience TCU, which is for admitted students only, which is also one of the days I currently give tours. I made some friends, but I remember feeling very overwhelmed, even though it was like my third or fourth time visiting the campus. For me most of my friends back home had already decided where they were going to school and it stressed me out not knowing. I kept waiting and waiting and waiting. I liked a lot of the places I visited and I could not figure out what I was supposed to do. My Mom kept assuring me I was in no hurry to chose a school, but I felt like I needed to be in a tremendous hurry. It was all scary and exciting at the same time. We went to dinner at this neat place in the stockyards and I remember all of a sudden feeling this very good, but weird feeling of relief. And then I told my parents I wanted to attend TCU. I was almost scared to say it because it was a HUGE decision with a lot of build up, but just like that I suddenly knew. I remember people telling me “it’s a certain feeling” or “you’ll know when you know” and I thought that was the most made up thing I had ever heard, until it actually happened to me. I just really felt God saying that He needed me here on this campus. I also remember wondering why and to this day I still wonder why. It was a moment I will never forget. And after that I guess you could say the rest is history.
Last night I was laying in bed and thinking of all the things that have happened the past two years. I mean for example, when I decided to come to TCU two years ago I didn’t even know what “Southern and Thankful” was. It hadn’t even been born yet. I think about the friends I have made and the friends I have lost. I think about that drive down here when I first moved to TCU and the car that hit me/welcomed me to Fort Worth. I think about the thousands of things I have learned in and out of the classroom. I think about the hard tests I have had and the fun times I have loved. I think about receiving my dorm assignment to a dorm that is now been torn down to house a new parking garage. I think about that one time I cried for a majority of my six hour drive back to TCU. I think about rush and becoming a beta. I think about learning to have complete faith in God’s plan.
I look back on that huge leap of faith and I wonder how exactly did I do that? I mean to come here knowing no one in a whole other state at 19 years old. Thank God for His grace, love, and strength. I would not be here without Him and His calling! Also, thank you to my family for supporting me and for encouraging me every step of the way. It’s hard to believe two years ago I made one of the best decisions of my life. Looking back I don’t think I would change a thing. Wow I am so thankful for this journey and the best part is that I am still on it!!
Prayers for me this week as I have a testWednesday, a test Thursday, and a paper due Thursday, on top of everything else. But hey thank goodness I am here today and living in this crazy and amazing decision I made two years ago. I am very very thankful that God called me here two years ago today. I also find joy in looking back at His work over the past two years. Who knew the kid of the tour with no jacket and a thick southern accent would two years later be in the middle of his sophomore year, sitting at his desk in his fraternity house, stressing about a busy week, and writing about what he is most thankful for today. I never would have guessed that would happen, but that’s why God is the person I trust the most! Happy 2 Year Anniversary TCU!
Southern and Thankful