Along with school, there is this overwhelming pressure of trying to figure out what I want to do with my life after graduation. All my roommates, and a lot of my friends, are seniors starting their last semester of school and it has really had me thinking about how unprepared I am for my future after TCU. I mean I am not getting any younger (lol), but truly that pressure has not been easy for me to face. I am also in search of an internship this summer that will enlighten me and help me discover more of what I want to do in the future. I am not sure what that will be or where that will be, but I am trusting that God will lead me to the proper place. If you would, pray with me about that.
And then, just the part of fitting in, and finding my place…that is always at the forefront of my mind. You guys know from reading my blog that I struggle with confidence. Having all of these new (and old) friendships is wonderful. But, do you ever feel like you are still looking at the friends that don’t place you very high on their priority list, and then focus on that friend and the “whys” instead of on the ones that are bending over backwards and doing flips just to be a part of your life?? Haha! Well, I’m focusing on the ones who’ve gone out of their way, here in this blog, and from now on. I was lucky enough to have many people travel to my sweet home town during the Christmas break to be with me and my family. So blessed by this. Sam, JoPo, Patrick, Allie and Mandy…you guys are the best.
I am also a huge planner, as you know (haha, thank to my parents, it’s in my blood). One of my friends who was supposed to come but cancelled at the last minute really put me in a tail spin. I was initially pretty irritated because I had passed up a ski trip (insert sad face here) and I had planned to drive back to school with company. So…after taking a minute to get over these hiccups…God again provided in the form of another friend; my sweet cousin/sister/friend Hillary cancelled her flight back to Dallas just to ride with me!!! Can you believe that?? I’m a pretty good friend to people and I’m not even sure I would have done that!! She is such a light in my life–THANK YOU HILL!!!
A huge thank you to my family and friends for an amazing break. I don’t know how such amazing people were placed in my life, but I thank my lucky stars each day that I am surrounded by people who value me, my feelings, and my friendship. Seriously, my parents were so amazing this break hosting my various friends and putting up with their oldest moving back in for a bit. But, I think they loved it to. Atleast that is what they said…hahaha!
Anyway…cheers to family, friends and figuring it all out!!!
Yours Truly,
Southern and Thankful
Cade- I’m so sorry you had to experience a panic attack that was so severe. You are such a great leader and friend, but I know you are a perfectionist, as wel. I’m so proud of you and all you have accomplished. Prayers for God to continue to work in your life and lead you down the right career path.
You and Jacob have so much in common. I hope you two can get together this semester. He’s trying to find some different ways to get plugged in. Love and hugs and have the BEST semester yet!