For those of you who are unaware, I had to take a very important test today. I had to make an 80 on a standardized grammar test. If I was unable to do so, then I would have had to drop the class I am in this semester that is required for my major. I prayed a lot because I have never been good with super important tests, or grammar and spelling. They have just always been weak points for me. I knew not truly understanding grammar would one day come back to haunt me. When I found out I had to do this, I immediately felt an enormous weight on my shoulders. I also immediately started praying because I honestly didn’t know what was going to happen. Going in today, I was prepared to not pass. I didn’t want to go in thinking I would pass because typically when I think something, the opposite happens. I was confident in myself, but I knew God had a plan. If that plan involved me not passing, then that would be God’s plan. That is really hard to accept, but I am so thankful that I did accept that because it made life a lot less stressful leading up to the test.
When I walked in the room that all kind of went away, but that is okay! I really wanted this class because I really want to get better writing skills when it comes to grammar and looking at my work. The test was 100 questions and with every question, my heart started beating faster. By the time the 99th question came around, I thought I was going to throw up. I am not really sure why I was so nervous, but I promise I was! After I clicked the 99th question I quickly shut my eyes because I was afraid to see the results. That was the big deciding factor. Whatever I made would affect what happened next.
Would I be happy?
Would I be sad?
Would I consider changing my major?
WHAT WOULD HAPPEN?
I then stopped and felt comfort when I remembered God is always with me and God has a plan. He would not cause me troubles if they wouldn’t be good in the long run. It would have been hard to grasp, but I knew it would all work out.
“Everything happens for a reason. Everything happens for a reason.”
I then opened my eyes, with this in mind and saw an 82.
I then stopped and gave all the praise to God because he does deserve all the praise in everything I do. That is the point I am trying to get to. No matter what, we have to be thankful. So yes, today I am thankful for that 82. It may not seem like a big deal to you, but it was a very big deal for me! I appreciate everyone who prayed for me. I really needed those prayers and I am so thankful for a wonderful support team. The stress is over and I can now focus my time on learning. When I called my mom, she said I didn’t sound very excited, but I think it was because I was in shock. After hanging up with her I cried. I cried because I was happy. I cried because the build up of all that was so hectic. I cried because I got an 82. I cried because I am thankful!
Southern and Thankful