I have never been the best at taking a test. It was something that I struggled with last year, but somewhere in the second semester I finally felt like it clicked. Well flip that switch back down because I seem to have lost it. I could write an essay all day long, but having to learn tons of vocabulary and history is killing me. I am beginning to forget what it is like to feel good after taking a test. I mean I study. I pay attention in class. I take notes. I try my absolute hardest and yet things still don’t work out. I had a testtoday and I felt beat after I left it. What happened to just learning and enjoying school? I can’t remember the last time I actually enjoyed learning something in school. It always has some type of stress behind it. It get’s tired and I am beginning to feel a little defeated. I came back to my room after my test and just laid on my bed. After waking up at 5:30, not feeling that great, and everything else going on I was really feeling defeated. It’s hard not to! And when you feel defeated the devil uses that as an instant in to mess with us. We then start worrying about the future, about living arrangements, about friendships, and everything else going on in life. It is easy to let this happen.
I can’t really tell you how to get over it, but I can assure you that one of the best ways is to look at how blessed you are. I have a family that loves me, clothes, food, water, my gray blanket, a car, a bible, a business, many other things, and my faith. I could have it so much worse. Some don’t even have the opportunity to go to college. It may be hard and it may make me question myself, but I know my God and I know He has a plan for me and I know He won’t ever give me anything I can’t handle. Ever.
And so when life gets you down… Focus on your blessings to turn things back around. God works in us each and every day. Though it may not seem like it or though it is not how we want it… it will be the best in the end. I am holding on to that because I am loved and I am a child of God. That is all I really need!Tomorrow is a new day… I can’t wait to see what God has in store!
Southern and Thankful