Someone told me it was really cool that I did this blog because it was like a time capsule. I could remember all the fun times and memories. This is so true, but life isn’t always about the good times. I am not even going to lie and pretend like I have a perfect life. I am not sure why, but I am having a hard time with the whole study aspect of college. I have been studying harder than I feel like I ever have, but it is not paying off and I am scared. I am not sure what to do. I am spread WAY thin and I feel like everyone around me has it all together. I know this isn’t true, but it is hard to see success when you are not getting it. I do not understand why God is making this transition so hard for me. I mean I have been thought hard things before, but this is real hard. It is one thing after another and I do not get it. I am praying and asking God for strength and guidance, but I would LOVE for others to pray too. I am sorry for posting this, but I don’t have a lot of people to talk to here and this is why I have this blog. To express my feelings and to also help me in life. I know there is a reason for all of this, but I am praying that I get though this sooner rather than later. I am sorry for the overload, but I want people to know that even though this is hard, I am still going to find a way to be thankful. I know I will benefit from this some way; some how. God has shown me that before, and I fully trust that everything will work out. That doesn’t mean that it isn’t hard. I love having Southern and Thankful because of all the support that I receive. I couldn’t make it without it.
Today, I am thankful for a cup of coffee because it is something new and something fun. It, like college was messy and different, but once I learned how to make it, it will now be easier. I pray HARD that college will end up the same. I am always thankful and no matter what I will rely on God. He has me. Guys, please pray. I need it and I need strength. Thank you God for the new things in life that turn out to be the best. I am here, waiting to see how you will make this all clear. Until then…
Southern and Thankful