Someone told me it was really cool that I did this blog because it was like a time capsule. I could remember all the fun times and memories. This is so true, but life isn’t always about the good times. I am not even going to lie and pretend like I have a perfect life. I am not sure why, but I am having a hard time with the whole study aspect of college. I have been studying harder than I feel like I ever have, but it is not paying off and I am scared. I am not sure what to do. I am spread WAY thin and I feel like everyone around me has it all together. I know this isn’t true, but it is hard to see success when you are not getting it. I do not understand why God is making this transition so hard for me. I mean I have been thought hard things before, but this is real hard. It is one thing after another and I do not get it. I am praying and asking God for strength and guidance, but I would LOVE for others to pray too. I am sorry for posting this, but I don’t have a lot of people to talk to here and this is why I have this blog. To express my feelings and to also help me in life. I know there is a reason for all of this, but I am praying that I get though this sooner rather than later. I am sorry for the overload, but I want people to know that even though this is hard, I am still going to find a way to be thankful. I know I will benefit from this some way; some how. God has shown me that before, and I fully trust that everything will work out. That doesn’t mean that it isn’t hard. I love having Southern and Thankful because of all the support that I receive. I couldn’t make it without it.
Today, I am thankful for a cup of coffee because it is something new and something fun. It, like college was messy and different, but once I learned how to make it, it will now be easier. I pray HARD that college will end up the same. I am always thankful and no matter what I will rely on God. He has me. Guys, please pray. I need it and I need strength. Thank you God for the new things in life that turn out to be the best. I am here, waiting to see how you will make this all clear. Until then…
Southern and Thankful
Stay strong, Cade! You have more support than you know. Be confident in who you are, persistent in your pursuit for truth, and faithful to your studies. Talk with your big, Sam, or go see Academic services about effective ways to study and use your time well. The first semester is always a new adventure but from what I’ve read in your blogs, you’re not one to turn away from a challenge. You are an inspiration to many, and we are all on Team Cade.
Anonymous and Grateful
Betty Morris says
Cade hang in there and I am sure it will bet easier and i will keep u in my prayers daily and I know God will get u through this. Betty Morris
Cade, this is just another “new” for you. You’ve got this. Everything worth having or doing requires extra effort and some adjustments. If everything was easy – we might forget to be “thankful”.
Remember, you are no longer the cream of the crop; you are back to being a seedling. (That’s a metaphor, BTW.) Leaving a farm town to go to school out-of-state is hard because you are now mixed in with suburban classmates who may have come from high schools of 1000+ in DFW or Houston areas. You might be able to explain why we have mosquitoes because of rice irrigation, while others had the opportunity to take four years of Spanish, French OR German in mega-schools. They are used to the rapid city pace less affected by weather changes and seasons. Studying in college is all about Time Management. I was most alert and least distracted getting up really early. And even as an adult, I keep a book with me at all times . . . got one on phone? Color-coded index cards? You will find a new strategy sometime by the end of your freshman year. Keep your chin up, or should I say down if you are focused on reading 🙂
Joyce Roth says
God will see you through and you will be so much stronger afterwards. God is molding you into what he wants for your life. I will pray that you get through this time of transition soon. The first semester of your freshman year is always tough. You are experiencing so many new things and you want to do it all. However, studying does have to come first. Hang in there!
Carol Smith says
Cade, I have been keeping up with you since you left for school. I look forward to hearing how you are doing. I know it is hard and I keep thinking about Kaylee when she left for school. She seems so happy now. We did as your parents and grandparents have done – encouraged, visited often as we could, sent pkgs of fun things, called often with our love and lots of prayers. Everything will turn out fine. I’ll keep watching for Southern and Thankful! Hugs!